Irritating Perfection

Just need to do a quick rant to calm myself down before I go about the rest of my day.  Mark and I are in Indiana for the weekend.  So as we are getting ready for Sarah's baby shower this afternoon my mom was getting a salad ready and I was going to help.  Everything was ready to go, all we had to do was to tear up the lettuce and put it in the bowl.  NOT COMPLICATED!

All of the lettuce has been washed and so I sit down at the table and start tearing up the lettuce and putting in a bowl.  "Wait wait wait wait."  Mom says.  "There's a method to this madness" she says.

I look up utterly confused.  Are there lettuce ripping methods I am not aware of.  Quickly I am scolded as if I am 5 and told that I am not doing it correctly.

"What do you mean?  Mom you are making this more complicated then it needs to be.  It is just a salad."
She is stumbling over her words.  "You just can't.....you have to do like....Never mind!  I will just do it myself" she says starting to get worked up.  Now that I am feeling thoroughly attacked and belittled I start to argue again, "You aren't telling me how you want it.  You are making this too complicated"

Dad chirps up from the couch "Megan just leave it alone.  Just let her do it."  -Dad the strong silent type doing just about anything to keep his wife from having a complete meltdown.
I silently leave the table.

Let me just say that I hate perfectionists!  DRIVE ME CRAZY!!  Having a perfectionist for a mother is incredibly difficult as it always tends to leave me feeling like I'm not good enough.  Makes me want to run to my room and lock myself away like a little kid.  The only up side is that my mother can occasionally recognize the crazy in herself and she did just apologize to me.  Not that that makes me feel any better, because honestly is doesn't.  I just don't get the perfectionist way of thinking.  Lettuce has to be torn is a certain way??? REALLY??  It is just beyond ridiculous to me.

Irritating perfection.

Up!

Not a ton of stuff going on in my life today.  Learning to be patient about getting answers on potential jobs.  But even though I haven't done a lot today it has been a good day.

Things that have made me happy today:
-Going running with Mark this morning
-Special K blueberry cereal
-Watching 'Why Not with Shania Twain'
-Taking care of Mark after he had a bad day at work
-The chicken alfredo with spinach and red pepper I will soon eat for dinner
-An email from a friend I haven't talked to in 9 months

Things that have made me not happy today:
-Waking up at 6:30
-My sports bra resting on sunburned skin during my run(ouch!)
-Walking to the store to find the store closed(stupid canadian holiday)

Anyway I am so happy that this week is FINALLY here!!! Have been waiting for it to come for months and months!!! Sarah's baby shower this weekend, and my Dad's retirement party.  I can't wait for it all and am so excited for what I have planned for both events.

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Yesterday morning Mark and I went for a successful run.  Was tough though, I needed more time to stretch.  Anyway I was feeling good all day yesterday.  Didn't feel like I was bored or searching for anything to do.
Today was different.  Mark only wants to get up early to run every other day, so we slept in.  I slept until 10.  That totally changed my day.  I ate breakfast and watched a movie.  Then for the next 2 hours felt incredibly stir crazy.  Thankfully instead of making myself more miserable I got out of the house.

It is finally such a beautiful day so I rode my bike to the library to return a book.  It was nice, and even warmer out than I was expecting.  Now I feel a lot  better and a lot less crazy.

Tomorrow Mark and I was going to the zoo with his brothers family.  Should be interesting. 

Really all I want right now is for it to be next thursday already!  Next thursday Mark and I will be driving to Indiana for a long weekend for Sarah's baby shower, and dad's retirement party.  I absolutely can't wait as we have been planning these things for months!
All for now, sorry this isn't more interesting.

Good Morning

Good morning friends.  It is 8am and I have been awake for an hour and a half....for those of you who are special, I have been awake since 6:30.  When I got back from LA Mark said that he wanted to start getting up early to go running.  We have both agreed that we have gained too much weight in our first year of marriage and needed to take charge.  So since I came home to bare cupboards and an empty fridge I decided that more fruits and veggies would take priority on my shopping trip.  -But I am getting sidetracked.  Mark wanted to start getting up early to go running.  So on Tuesday  morning he set the alarm for 6:30.  As the annoying beeping has gone off twice (him having hit the snooze once already) I proceeded to shake him awake.  He rolled over said, "Too tired" and fell back asleep.  I wasn't about to complain seeing as I was still exhausted from my trip home and didn't sleep very well that night anyway.

So yesterday night we agree to go to bed earlier so that we will be able to get up earlier and go for that run.  So at 6:30 this morning the alarm goes off again.  This time we are both awake.  As I am listening to the downpour of rain outside our window, I know there is not chance that Mark is gonna want to run it that, which he confirms a few minutes later.  (Can't blame him, it was literally pouring, and has been raining for like 2 weeks straight).  Anyhow, I still feel guilty that we have attempted to get up and run 2 times and it hasn't happened yet.  But I justify that we shouldn't run in the rain cuz we will probably get sick.  Since I was sick for pretty much all of April, I didn't want to chance it.

I am the type of person that once I have made the attempt to wake up, I am up and can't fall back to sleep.  Mark could fall asleep just about anywhere if he was tired or not.  So that is why it is 8am and I have been awake for so long.  It does make me feel good though to be up this early and to have eaten breakfast already.  Makes me feel like I am already being more productive that usual.
All for now.  Will write about LA trip next post.

patience

It seems ridiculous to post this now because I am going to see many of you within the next few days.  But over the past 2 days I have gotten into a funk.  That whole job thing is seriously testing my patience.  I am so desperate to move that that little glimmer of hope has now been overshadowed by my natural pessimism.  I know that the whole situation is way out of my hands, which makes it hard to be patient.

In other news I put all of my winter clothes away today, and took about the summer ones.  Unfortunately the majority of my summer clothes don't fit me anymore.  Even stuff I wore on our honeymoon won't even slide on past my thighs.  -I knew I gained weight, but didn't think it was that bad.  So don't be surprised if when you see me I am wearing a junky t-shirt....cuz that is mostly what fits.

In conclusion I will admit that I am being an idiot and am being incredibly lazy.  I recognize that it is ridiculous that I don't have a job and don't seem to find the time to work out.  I fully admit that the funk I am in is pathetic and that there are worse things in life than having to be patient.

I am sooo excited to go back 'home' and see my best friends in the world.  I absolutely can't wait.

HUGE NEWS!!!!!!!!!!!!

I still can't even quite believe it!  I am sure you guys are sick of hearing about all of the jobs I have been applying for, but this is worth mentioning...

A a middle school in my hometown, there was an opening for a social studies/english teacher.  It happens to be at the same school that my cousin Jeanie works at.  She told me to apply for it even though I'm not qualified to teach english.  So that is what I did on monday afternoon.  On Tuesday I sent her a message that my application was in and asked her to pass on a good word to her principal.

Today after school she went to tell her principal that she couldn't coach basketball and her principal asked her about me because he had been looking at my application!  I had her as a reference to he wanted to get more info about me.  The whole living in Canada thing through him off, but she said she told him I would be here in a heartbeat if I got a job.  He said I was definitely qualified because of the teaching experience that I already have.  She definitely talked me up, she reminded him that she introduced us last year when I was subbing, and he remembered. She said that he sounded really interested and thought that he might call me for an interview!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So needless to say, I am beyond happy with that!!!  It is the first real possibility of a job that I have had since I got hired in LA.  Not to mention that it would be my dream job!  In my old school district, and definitely not in Canada.

Anyhow I just wanted to share that little bit of good news with you all!  It just makes me so happy and I know that this is a major moment where I know it is God working in my life.  It really isn't anything yet, but I am so thankful for it.  Love you guys and can't wait to see you all next week!!