So happy new year everybody!
I figured now was as good a time as any to write a new post. The simple fact being that I am at a nerd New Years party.
Like if you have ever seen the tv show The Big Bang Theory....that is the level of nerdom that surrounds me. In one room my husband and his brother are playing NHL on Xbox.
In another room there is a massive fantasy type board game spread over the dining room table surrounded by a band of nerds talking about things like 'Lancelot cards', 'traitors' , and 'fight cards'.
While four of said people playing this game are normal looking, there are a few that fly the nerd flag with their appearance. For example one young man wearing a black t-shirt that has some deathly looking creature on it with a skull and wings or something ridiculous.
This is the nerd party I am at. There are booze, which can make any nerd party better. However myself, my husband, and my brother-in-law are the only ones drinking. My sister-in-law would be drinking if she weren't 8 months pregnant right now. I am one beer, and half a bottle of wine in.
So I am at least starting to 'feel good' this is by no means my idea of a 'fun' New Years and can't help but think that I wish I was with my friends in California. At this point I would almost rather just go to bed right now (9pm) then stay up with the nerd fest.
So now that we have established my physical surroundings this New Year's Eve, lets discuss my mental state.
Right now I am very excited to see what 2013 will bring. While difficult, I am thankful that 2012 provided Mark with his green card! 2013 should continue to carry us through with 'our plan'.
The plan right now is to continue on with how things are going. Mark working in Ohio until the business is ready to expand to indiana.
Found out today that we officially got the apartment we applied for!! It is a brand new apartment complex that nobody else has ever lived in. It is 10 mins from my school. Signing papers and getting keys on Wednesday.
The rest of the plan for 2013 is to keep on keeping on, hopefully get ready to buy a house, and start a family.
So I am looking forward to what 2013 has to offer.
I am hoping maybe for a trip to Cali in the summer too. I miss my girls like craaaazzzyyy!!
All for now my friends! Happy New Year, I love you.
Monday, December 31, 2012
Saturday, October 27, 2012
Fast and Furious
All of the sudden I feel like life is coming at me fast and furious. After I moved from LA I feel like my life has been in a standstill. Just waiting for the day when life looked the way I wanted it to. Now all of the sudden that life is taking shape and I feel like I am just trying to keep up. All if these new life events are exciting, but giving me a lot to do and to think about.
It is crazy to think that in one week mark and I will be in Montreal getting ready for our interview. I can't wait for it to be over and get back to a normal life. I miss him.
In the meantime I've had a lot to do. I bought a car. While very exciting it was a very stressful process. I know we can afford it, I can't help but worry about such a big car payment over the next five years. But I do freaking love our new car and pretty much spent the whole day in it today.
The next step in the game of life is finding a place to live. This is proving difficult. But I know I will find something, it is just hard to make all of these big decisions without mark around.
Everything is great right now, and I know this whole plan is gonna work. It would just be nice to skip some of the stress that goes along with it.
Anyway, here's to exciting changes!
It is crazy to think that in one week mark and I will be in Montreal getting ready for our interview. I can't wait for it to be over and get back to a normal life. I miss him.
In the meantime I've had a lot to do. I bought a car. While very exciting it was a very stressful process. I know we can afford it, I can't help but worry about such a big car payment over the next five years. But I do freaking love our new car and pretty much spent the whole day in it today.
The next step in the game of life is finding a place to live. This is proving difficult. But I know I will find something, it is just hard to make all of these big decisions without mark around.
Everything is great right now, and I know this whole plan is gonna work. It would just be nice to skip some of the stress that goes along with it.
Anyway, here's to exciting changes!
Tuesday, October 2, 2012
Overwhelmed
At the current moment in time I am a little overwhelmed. Absolutely feel frustrated and a little bit. It is just work stuff that is getting to me today.
The moment I feel all caught up and okay with things all the sudden it comes crashing down.
I am finding it difficult to do everything I new to do as well as create first grade level lessons for my special Ed students.
I feel like they threw IEP's at me and said figure it out...and by the way will jump down your throat when you don't have it all figured out.
It's not really that bad as I make it sound, that's just how it made me feel. So yeah maybe I need to spend more time working on things.
But I'm just overwhelmed and feel a little attacked when nobody prepared me for these things.
Still trying to figure it all out
The moment I feel all caught up and okay with things all the sudden it comes crashing down.
I am finding it difficult to do everything I new to do as well as create first grade level lessons for my special Ed students.
I feel like they threw IEP's at me and said figure it out...and by the way will jump down your throat when you don't have it all figured out.
It's not really that bad as I make it sound, that's just how it made me feel. So yeah maybe I need to spend more time working on things.
But I'm just overwhelmed and feel a little attacked when nobody prepared me for these things.
Still trying to figure it all out
Saturday, September 22, 2012
Some nights
So here is the latest news of my life (which really isn't much)
Since my last post my wonderfully consistent weight loss has hit a snag...or a plateau if you will. It became apparent that my days of losing two pounds a week are over. I think my body has lost as much weight as it can without exercise. So here are my stats. In the middle of June I weighed in at 175 pounds and a size 14. After 3 months of following the skinny rules I now weigh in at 145 pounds giving me a total loss of 30 pounds. Also, I am now coming in at my long lost size 8. Also my large shirts have gone to a medium.
I am not at all upset that I've hit my plateau, because my plateau is right were I'm happy being. Also I know that if I were to start working out I'd be able to lose more. I also am aware that I have relaxed on the skinny rules a bit the past couple weeks.
Last weekend my baby cousin got married. It was a perfectly beautiful day. I decided to let myself go a little bit (diet wise) for her big day. I had the prime rib for dinner with some seriously delicious garlic mashed potatoes and asparagus. I also broke with my alcohol rule and decided to enjoy the open bar a bit and had three glasses of wine. On top of that I gave in to the first desert I've had since July 4th, and ate half a piece of the wedding cake. At first I was worried that I'd get home and would step on the scale to find a five pound weight gain. I was pleasantly surprised to find that I didn't gain a pound, or lose a pound but was right were I had been.
So along with my newly rediscovered size I have been spending far too much money buying clothes to go with my new size. The other week my mom and I went to the outlet mall. We decided to go into the Tommy Hilfiger outlet. We didn't buy anything but when we walked out we both were in love.
On a whim today we decided to go back to the outlet mall. We went in Tommy Hilfiger and again fell in love. I found a cute beyond cute sweater that last week was a bit pricey and this week was 50% off. I knew I had to get it. We continued looking and I came out with 2 pairs of pants for work and another shirt. Even dear heart came out with a shirt. Normally I dislike shopping at expensive places like that but I couldn't resist the cuteness and the 40% off signs all over the place.
Not much else to say. This coming week is going to suck. On Wednesday we have a 3 day field trip to southern Indiana. Yes three days and two night with the kiddos from school...I'm so not excited about it. I am just ready for it to be over.
Otherwise fall has officially set in and it is time for the comfy warm clothes.
Since my last post my wonderfully consistent weight loss has hit a snag...or a plateau if you will. It became apparent that my days of losing two pounds a week are over. I think my body has lost as much weight as it can without exercise. So here are my stats. In the middle of June I weighed in at 175 pounds and a size 14. After 3 months of following the skinny rules I now weigh in at 145 pounds giving me a total loss of 30 pounds. Also, I am now coming in at my long lost size 8. Also my large shirts have gone to a medium.
I am not at all upset that I've hit my plateau, because my plateau is right were I'm happy being. Also I know that if I were to start working out I'd be able to lose more. I also am aware that I have relaxed on the skinny rules a bit the past couple weeks.
Last weekend my baby cousin got married. It was a perfectly beautiful day. I decided to let myself go a little bit (diet wise) for her big day. I had the prime rib for dinner with some seriously delicious garlic mashed potatoes and asparagus. I also broke with my alcohol rule and decided to enjoy the open bar a bit and had three glasses of wine. On top of that I gave in to the first desert I've had since July 4th, and ate half a piece of the wedding cake. At first I was worried that I'd get home and would step on the scale to find a five pound weight gain. I was pleasantly surprised to find that I didn't gain a pound, or lose a pound but was right were I had been.
So along with my newly rediscovered size I have been spending far too much money buying clothes to go with my new size. The other week my mom and I went to the outlet mall. We decided to go into the Tommy Hilfiger outlet. We didn't buy anything but when we walked out we both were in love.
On a whim today we decided to go back to the outlet mall. We went in Tommy Hilfiger and again fell in love. I found a cute beyond cute sweater that last week was a bit pricey and this week was 50% off. I knew I had to get it. We continued looking and I came out with 2 pairs of pants for work and another shirt. Even dear heart came out with a shirt. Normally I dislike shopping at expensive places like that but I couldn't resist the cuteness and the 40% off signs all over the place.
Not much else to say. This coming week is going to suck. On Wednesday we have a 3 day field trip to southern Indiana. Yes three days and two night with the kiddos from school...I'm so not excited about it. I am just ready for it to be over.
Otherwise fall has officially set in and it is time for the comfy warm clothes.
Monday, August 27, 2012
Tid-bits
Hey friends. So a lot has happened since my last post. I've actually been working the past three weeks. So I thought I would just fill you in on the few things that have stood out to me.
-the people I work with are nice and funny
-I have some interesting little monsters..I mean students
-I have gone to the store three times for white out
-I dropped a basket on my toe at the grocery store yesterday.
-not during my class, but during the English teachers class one of our students picked a scab. It started bleeding. The child then took a goldfish cracker, dipped it in the blood and ate it.
-my toe is bruised from my basket drop and it hurts when I walk
-I like the consistency of taking my lunch to work.
-according to the scale in my parents bathroom, I have lost 30 pounds!
-I eat a Greek yogurt smoothie for breakfast on my way to work. Fruit, Greek yogurt, and water to thin it out. It is my favorite breakfast
-I eat a half sandwich for lunch with ham, cheese and mustard. And an apple. And sometimes a hard boiled egg.
-I have an 11 year old genius in my seventh grade class
-hard boiled eggs are great with lunch cuz they keep me really full for the rest of my afternoon.
-I am going to see mark in four days.
-when he remembers that he knows how to text, he sends me sweet things.
-he wrote '80 plus hours of work this week and I was thinking about you the whole time'
-swoon....if you listen real close you can hear my heart go pitter patter.
-dear heart has an abrasion on her eye. All hell has broken lose.
-Lewis the cat has insisted on meowing like crazy an hour before I have to get up.
-I had a dream about Kenny Chesney this weekend...what does it mean when Kenny doesn't look hot in your dreams.
-he reminded me of kid rock but uglier in my dream.
-who is uglier than kid rock?
-At the beginning of the summer I could barely zip my bridesmaids dress. It is currently being taken in. Whoa.
-I tell Caroline she is my best friend and then proceed to give her lots of kisses
-I like some nights by Fun.
-I have been listening to it on repeat the whole time I've been typing this post
-sometimes I think I want coffee. Then I think that I feel so good after my smoothie that coffee would ruin my smoothie hangover
-sometimes coffee gives my stomach issues. And it makes me sweat.
-the other week I hadn't shaved for a full week. I sent Kathy a picture of my hairy legs.
-it has currently been two days since my last shave... I better get on that by Friday.
-guess I gotta get spruced up for my man.
The end for now. I hope I can have a dream tonight about a hot Kenny Chesney, not a white trash mullet kenny.
-the people I work with are nice and funny
-I have some interesting little monsters..I mean students
-I have gone to the store three times for white out
-I dropped a basket on my toe at the grocery store yesterday.
-not during my class, but during the English teachers class one of our students picked a scab. It started bleeding. The child then took a goldfish cracker, dipped it in the blood and ate it.
-my toe is bruised from my basket drop and it hurts when I walk
-I like the consistency of taking my lunch to work.
-according to the scale in my parents bathroom, I have lost 30 pounds!
-I eat a Greek yogurt smoothie for breakfast on my way to work. Fruit, Greek yogurt, and water to thin it out. It is my favorite breakfast
-I eat a half sandwich for lunch with ham, cheese and mustard. And an apple. And sometimes a hard boiled egg.
-I have an 11 year old genius in my seventh grade class
-hard boiled eggs are great with lunch cuz they keep me really full for the rest of my afternoon.
-I am going to see mark in four days.
-when he remembers that he knows how to text, he sends me sweet things.
-he wrote '80 plus hours of work this week and I was thinking about you the whole time'
-swoon....if you listen real close you can hear my heart go pitter patter.
-dear heart has an abrasion on her eye. All hell has broken lose.
-Lewis the cat has insisted on meowing like crazy an hour before I have to get up.
-I had a dream about Kenny Chesney this weekend...what does it mean when Kenny doesn't look hot in your dreams.
-he reminded me of kid rock but uglier in my dream.
-who is uglier than kid rock?
-At the beginning of the summer I could barely zip my bridesmaids dress. It is currently being taken in. Whoa.
-I tell Caroline she is my best friend and then proceed to give her lots of kisses
-I like some nights by Fun.
-I have been listening to it on repeat the whole time I've been typing this post
-sometimes I think I want coffee. Then I think that I feel so good after my smoothie that coffee would ruin my smoothie hangover
-sometimes coffee gives my stomach issues. And it makes me sweat.
-the other week I hadn't shaved for a full week. I sent Kathy a picture of my hairy legs.
-it has currently been two days since my last shave... I better get on that by Friday.
-guess I gotta get spruced up for my man.
The end for now. I hope I can have a dream tonight about a hot Kenny Chesney, not a white trash mullet kenny.
Friday, August 3, 2012
Job!!
Sooooo I got a job today!!! I couldn't be happier!!
So the job is at a charter school about 15 mins from my parents house. The school has only been open a couple years so it's still pretty small. That means that I'm the only social studies teacher for the middle school grades(at least I'm pretty sure).
So I will be teaching two 6th grade classes, and two7/8 split classes. That is going to be incredibly challenging, but who cares as long as I have a job!!!
So let me take a minute to brag...
My moms good friend Linda has a son in law who is the assistant principal at this school. So when the position opened up, mom called Linda to reccomend me to her son law. So after I got the call back today saying I got the job, mom called Linda to let her know. Linda told mom that her son in law had already called her. He told her that I 'blew them away'. That is awesome!!!!!
But at the end of the day I know that God was in control. I've prayed so much about it. Then when the interview was happening I didn't even feel nervous, i just felt good! I'm so happy and so thankful!!
So the job is at a charter school about 15 mins from my parents house. The school has only been open a couple years so it's still pretty small. That means that I'm the only social studies teacher for the middle school grades(at least I'm pretty sure).
So I will be teaching two 6th grade classes, and two7/8 split classes. That is going to be incredibly challenging, but who cares as long as I have a job!!!
So let me take a minute to brag...
My moms good friend Linda has a son in law who is the assistant principal at this school. So when the position opened up, mom called Linda to reccomend me to her son law. So after I got the call back today saying I got the job, mom called Linda to let her know. Linda told mom that her son in law had already called her. He told her that I 'blew them away'. That is awesome!!!!!
But at the end of the day I know that God was in control. I've prayed so much about it. Then when the interview was happening I didn't even feel nervous, i just felt good! I'm so happy and so thankful!!
Friday, July 20, 2012
Back so soon
I know I just posted yesterday, however I feel like certain events are requiring me to make another post. This evening I was suddenly very mad and in a very bad mood. So I knew I had to take some steps to change my mood. Normally in a situation like that I would reach for some candy, or a glass of wine. However neither of those things are in my diet anymore so I had to come up with healthy ways to deal with my anger.
So here are the things I am thankful for today that helped get rid of my anger:
1) A trip to Target to pick up conditioner and mouthwash
2) A drive down a country road with a cool breeze and the windows down
3) The first night we've had in ages that wasn't hot and humid
4) Said night beckoned me out for a run which felt amazing
5) A cold and refreshing shower
6) Going through a bag of clothes I brought from Canada in search of shorts I could wear to bed
7) Finding said shorts which fit me a lot better than the last time I put them on
8) The following three songs
-Pitbull, Back in Time
-Little Big Town, Pontoon
-Zac Brown Band, The Wind
***If you haven't heard any of these songs I suggest you do it immediately
Anyhow those are the things I am thankful for as they helped get rid of my anger and make me feel better. Have a good night friends
So here are the things I am thankful for today that helped get rid of my anger:
1) A trip to Target to pick up conditioner and mouthwash
2) A drive down a country road with a cool breeze and the windows down
4) Said night beckoned me out for a run which felt amazing
5) A cold and refreshing shower
6) Going through a bag of clothes I brought from Canada in search of shorts I could wear to bed
7) Finding said shorts which fit me a lot better than the last time I put them on
8) The following three songs
-Pitbull, Back in Time
-Little Big Town, Pontoon
-Zac Brown Band, The Wind
***If you haven't heard any of these songs I suggest you do it immediately
Anyhow those are the things I am thankful for as they helped get rid of my anger and make me feel better. Have a good night friends
Thursday, July 19, 2012
The latest
So I guess that it has been awhile since I've updated you all.
Things are pretty much the same. I spent a week in Ohio because mark was out there working. Seeing him was exactly what I needed. He just melted away all of the stress that I had been feeling, and made me laugh a lot.
The weight loss has been continuing well for me. I am still steadily losing weight. In 5 weeks I have lost 16 pounds and dropped a size. Now I just need to get my running on track and I will really lose weight. It has been too hot (90-100degrees) plus the humidity to run outside. I got up early at 6 one day this week to run, but even that early it was still about 80 degrees. I need to just suck it up and run on the treadmill.
I'm never gonna be ready for this race my sister got me to sign up for.
Otherwise things are good. I've had a couple job opportunities pop up this week. I met with a family that needs a nanny. I think it went well but we shall see. I have a phone interview for a teaching position tomorrow. It's at a charter school close by and I really hope it goes well. Prayers are appreciated. I feel pretty prepared, so just excited to see what comes from it.
I guess that's it for now have a good weekend kids.
Things are pretty much the same. I spent a week in Ohio because mark was out there working. Seeing him was exactly what I needed. He just melted away all of the stress that I had been feeling, and made me laugh a lot.
The weight loss has been continuing well for me. I am still steadily losing weight. In 5 weeks I have lost 16 pounds and dropped a size. Now I just need to get my running on track and I will really lose weight. It has been too hot (90-100degrees) plus the humidity to run outside. I got up early at 6 one day this week to run, but even that early it was still about 80 degrees. I need to just suck it up and run on the treadmill.
I'm never gonna be ready for this race my sister got me to sign up for.
Otherwise things are good. I've had a couple job opportunities pop up this week. I met with a family that needs a nanny. I think it went well but we shall see. I have a phone interview for a teaching position tomorrow. It's at a charter school close by and I really hope it goes well. Prayers are appreciated. I feel pretty prepared, so just excited to see what comes from it.
I guess that's it for now have a good weekend kids.
Friday, June 29, 2012
Chinese
Who knew Chinese food could be so nasty. Tonight I am babysitting for my cousins and Chinese food was ordered for dinner for me and the kids. It was from a place called jade garden which is where my family has always got our Chinese food. It is always good...until tonight. Tonight was different for me because of the skinny rules.
I bought the book because I wanted something to jump start my weight loss. It certainly did that! It got me thinking about what I've been eating and got me used to eating good things, and gave me no desire for anything else. I can't follow all of what he says exactly, but following it as well as I can I've been able to lose about 10 pounds in two weeks!!
Unfortunately tonight I was faced with Chinese food and no other options. So I figured I'd eat just a small portion and go running tomorrow morning. So I ate my little bit of Chinese and as I took a bite of the egg roll I thought to myself 'this is disgusting'. It didn't taste bad...its that ive been so against anything unhealthy, and haven't eaten anything unhealthy in 2 weeks that it's like my body knew this wasn't something good for me, and became so disgusted by it. I couldn't finish the egg roll.
Now I've just been sitting here and can't stop thinking about how gross I feel. I am definitely ready for tomorrow and going running and cleansing the fried Chinese out of my system.
I never thought there would be a diet plan that would make me so turned off by unhealthy food. I haven't had any cravings for anything bad the past two weeks. Occasionally I've felt like some ice cream would be great. But then I picture myself actually eating it and what it would taste like and I get that disgusted feeling again.
So anyway I am looking forward to how the rest of it all goes. I just have been feeling so good about it all and totally reccomend this book.
I bought the book because I wanted something to jump start my weight loss. It certainly did that! It got me thinking about what I've been eating and got me used to eating good things, and gave me no desire for anything else. I can't follow all of what he says exactly, but following it as well as I can I've been able to lose about 10 pounds in two weeks!!
Unfortunately tonight I was faced with Chinese food and no other options. So I figured I'd eat just a small portion and go running tomorrow morning. So I ate my little bit of Chinese and as I took a bite of the egg roll I thought to myself 'this is disgusting'. It didn't taste bad...its that ive been so against anything unhealthy, and haven't eaten anything unhealthy in 2 weeks that it's like my body knew this wasn't something good for me, and became so disgusted by it. I couldn't finish the egg roll.
Now I've just been sitting here and can't stop thinking about how gross I feel. I am definitely ready for tomorrow and going running and cleansing the fried Chinese out of my system.
I never thought there would be a diet plan that would make me so turned off by unhealthy food. I haven't had any cravings for anything bad the past two weeks. Occasionally I've felt like some ice cream would be great. But then I picture myself actually eating it and what it would taste like and I get that disgusted feeling again.
So anyway I am looking forward to how the rest of it all goes. I just have been feeling so good about it all and totally reccomend this book.
Monday, June 25, 2012
Don't know
I don't know what to think anymore. Is any of this right? Is this all going to blow up in my face?
I'm just scared.
I'm just scared.
Monday, June 11, 2012
Irritated
I'm glad that you get to do whatever you feel like whenever you feel like it. Don't worry about all those responsibilities that you have, somebody else will just pick up the slack for you. Leaving your mess for somebody else to clean up is such a crap move. I am so irritated that you think that you can do whatever you want and shut your responsibilities off for a night, because the mess you left lands on my husband.
Tonight was the one night Mark was going to finally have time to sit down on the phone with me so we could complete some very important immigration paperwork. But guess what...because of you and your mess this incredibly important thing is being postponed again.
But you know don't trouble yourselves. I know you don't know or care how your childish behavior effects other people. You're still a kid so don't worry, us grown ups will clean up your mess again. You can only crap on my husband so many times before I lose all respect for you.
Tonight was the one night Mark was going to finally have time to sit down on the phone with me so we could complete some very important immigration paperwork. But guess what...because of you and your mess this incredibly important thing is being postponed again.
But you know don't trouble yourselves. I know you don't know or care how your childish behavior effects other people. You're still a kid so don't worry, us grown ups will clean up your mess again. You can only crap on my husband so many times before I lose all respect for you.
Tuesday, June 5, 2012
2 years
These are the things that are currently making me happy:
cherries make me happy
My parents backyard makes me happy
Colin talking jibberish sounds like an eastern European makes me happy
Getting random messages of love makes me happy
Talking to my husband on our two year anniversary makes me happy. He makes me laugh. It has been easy while we've been apart for me to forget how hard he works for us. I appreciate him so much and am so looking forward to the next two years with him.
cherries make me happy
My parents backyard makes me happy
Colin talking jibberish sounds like an eastern European makes me happy
Getting random messages of love makes me happy
Talking to my husband on our two year anniversary makes me happy. He makes me laugh. It has been easy while we've been apart for me to forget how hard he works for us. I appreciate him so much and am so looking forward to the next two years with him.
Wednesday, May 30, 2012
I'm Freakin
Hey Kids. So today I was woken up at 4 am by the phone. Ann was calling to say that there was something wrong with her throat and could we come over immediately. She hasn't been doing great lately so we have been going over there pretty much every day to help her out. So I am exhausted from being up that early. I had a little cat nap around 9. Plus I have had a headache since yesterday.
Ann wanted to get out of the house this afternoon so she and I took off to the movies while the parents watched Colin boy. So I just got home from that a little while ago. I was just about to lay down in bed when my phone beeped to inform me of an email. Holy crap it's from the US government.
So long story short there were two things that they needed from us. One of them being that there is a form we have to fill out online and submit before an interview can be scheduled. So no big deal I looked at the form and it is just basic info on Mark. Just waiting for him to give me his passport number so I can fill it out.
The other thing is makin me freak a bit. It said that our affidavit of support (the monetary side of things) didn't meet the poverty guidelines. Meaning our income has to be over a certain amount. But I looked at the guidelines, and Mark's salary is about twice the minimum income needed. So I think the problem with it is from us not currently living in the same place, which was also a requirement. But the letter just said that that would be decided during our interview.
So I don't know it just has me freaked that there was something wrong with it. I'm sure that in the interview Mark and I can easily prove our relationship and any issue regarding our finances. I don't know, now it just has me worried. So please please keep praying for this to all work out.
Ann wanted to get out of the house this afternoon so she and I took off to the movies while the parents watched Colin boy. So I just got home from that a little while ago. I was just about to lay down in bed when my phone beeped to inform me of an email. Holy crap it's from the US government.
So long story short there were two things that they needed from us. One of them being that there is a form we have to fill out online and submit before an interview can be scheduled. So no big deal I looked at the form and it is just basic info on Mark. Just waiting for him to give me his passport number so I can fill it out.
The other thing is makin me freak a bit. It said that our affidavit of support (the monetary side of things) didn't meet the poverty guidelines. Meaning our income has to be over a certain amount. But I looked at the guidelines, and Mark's salary is about twice the minimum income needed. So I think the problem with it is from us not currently living in the same place, which was also a requirement. But the letter just said that that would be decided during our interview.
So I don't know it just has me freaked that there was something wrong with it. I'm sure that in the interview Mark and I can easily prove our relationship and any issue regarding our finances. I don't know, now it just has me worried. So please please keep praying for this to all work out.
Thursday, May 17, 2012
Indiana Update
This has certainly been an interesting day thus far. Mark and I got everything organized for the last of his immigration paperwork and it is officially in the mail. So please pray pray pray that it all goes through is accepted and my wonderful husband can join me in the US.
I had to go into the bank to put some money into my account so that I could pay for that immigration. While there the bank manger realized that she had left a message for me at home wanting to set up a time for an interview. So I have an interview tomorrow for a job at the bank!!
Shortly after that, mom came with me to the store to look for a new shirt to wear to my interview tomorrow. Then we stopped at the frozen yogurt place "Yo-Amazing". It is fairly new to town, and was opened by Courtney Crozier who was on The Biggest Loser a few seasons ago. So I had been wanting to try it for awhile, and it was delicious.
While Mom and I were at the Yogurt place my Dad called. To make a very long story short he got some test results back and has skin cancer. It however doesn't sound like it is very serious at all, which is good. Two of his siblings have had the same issue with skin cancer, and were fine. Actually think they caught my dad's sooner than his siblings.
So that is it for now. I do need a favor from you kids to please send up a prayer about each of these 3 things. Pray Marks immigration is approved, pray I get this job, and pray that my dad will be fine.
I had to go into the bank to put some money into my account so that I could pay for that immigration. While there the bank manger realized that she had left a message for me at home wanting to set up a time for an interview. So I have an interview tomorrow for a job at the bank!!
Shortly after that, mom came with me to the store to look for a new shirt to wear to my interview tomorrow. Then we stopped at the frozen yogurt place "Yo-Amazing". It is fairly new to town, and was opened by Courtney Crozier who was on The Biggest Loser a few seasons ago. So I had been wanting to try it for awhile, and it was delicious.
While Mom and I were at the Yogurt place my Dad called. To make a very long story short he got some test results back and has skin cancer. It however doesn't sound like it is very serious at all, which is good. Two of his siblings have had the same issue with skin cancer, and were fine. Actually think they caught my dad's sooner than his siblings.
So that is it for now. I do need a favor from you kids to please send up a prayer about each of these 3 things. Pray Marks immigration is approved, pray I get this job, and pray that my dad will be fine.
Wednesday, May 9, 2012
Fail
Hey kids. I have know for several days now that I didn't get that teaching job. It totally bummed me out to think that I couldn't even get hired at a crappy school in the ghetto...so who would want me in a good school? I definitely had to deal with those kinds of thoughts for the past several days. But things have felt better since I've been home.
When I went to the bank to open an account I was chatting with the lady and she said they were hiring. So I might just try to get a job as a bank teller. She introduced me to the manager and said they would try to get in touch with me this week to set up an interview. So yeah that should be good.
Many of you may know that I got a cell phone today. I went all out and got an iphone. Now I just need to start working so I don't feel so bad buying something so expensive. Mark wouldn't care, but sometimes it just bugs me that I am spending money and not working. Will be signing on to substitute tomorrow.
So I guess that is it for now friends.
When I went to the bank to open an account I was chatting with the lady and she said they were hiring. So I might just try to get a job as a bank teller. She introduced me to the manager and said they would try to get in touch with me this week to set up an interview. So yeah that should be good.
Many of you may know that I got a cell phone today. I went all out and got an iphone. Now I just need to start working so I don't feel so bad buying something so expensive. Mark wouldn't care, but sometimes it just bugs me that I am spending money and not working. Will be signing on to substitute tomorrow.
So I guess that is it for now friends.
Thursday, May 3, 2012
The man in the moon works his magic
Hi Friends. I am writing to you from a very pinkalicious room at my in-laws. Things have been totally crazy lately getting all our stuff moved out of the condo, cancelling bills, getting our address changed and what not. Mark and I had to go to the lawyers office and sign all the paperwork for the condo. Yeah Canada is totally weird...For all real estate you have to get a lawyer to do all the paperwork and stuff. So we go to the lawyers, sign all the papers. Then the papers get sent to the buyers lawyer, and the buyer signs all the paperwork, then it is official. So in our case, our buyer will sign it all tomorrow, and I get to go the the lawyers and pick up our check!
Mark and his brother our going to the condo to get the last of our furniture out of it.
Tonight I will be attending a girls night out. This is my second official girls night out in the two years I have been in Canada. The first one was for my birthday and was awkward as all get out. Hopefully this one (which is a goodbye for me) will not be so terrible. Now that I know the people a little bit better. After that shin-dig I am going to the condo to vacuum and clean things up and officially be rid of it.
Right now I am feeling good because I have finally taken care of all of those random little things you gotta do when moving. Making sure all of our bills are closed out and what not. Had to make an appointment about the car insurance, called the parentals to get the plans straight with them about when they are coming to get me. Saturday Dad gets me, then we go back to Detroit till either Sunday or Monday morning. Then home to Valpo!!! So excited! I have plans to set up a bank account as soon and I am back. Following that, I am getting a phone. So for those of you who are excited for me to have a cell phone again, I expect to get it by Tuesday or Wednesday next week! WOOHOO!
FYI This song is wonderful and I making me happy. I am thinking it is gonna be my feel good song for the summer.
Mark and his brother our going to the condo to get the last of our furniture out of it.
Tonight I will be attending a girls night out. This is my second official girls night out in the two years I have been in Canada. The first one was for my birthday and was awkward as all get out. Hopefully this one (which is a goodbye for me) will not be so terrible. Now that I know the people a little bit better. After that shin-dig I am going to the condo to vacuum and clean things up and officially be rid of it.
Right now I am feeling good because I have finally taken care of all of those random little things you gotta do when moving. Making sure all of our bills are closed out and what not. Had to make an appointment about the car insurance, called the parentals to get the plans straight with them about when they are coming to get me. Saturday Dad gets me, then we go back to Detroit till either Sunday or Monday morning. Then home to Valpo!!! So excited! I have plans to set up a bank account as soon and I am back. Following that, I am getting a phone. So for those of you who are excited for me to have a cell phone again, I expect to get it by Tuesday or Wednesday next week! WOOHOO!
FYI This song is wonderful and I making me happy. I am thinking it is gonna be my feel good song for the summer.
Tuesday, May 1, 2012
No Clue
So I had my phone interview this morning. I have absolutely no idea how it went. I definitely sweat out my shirt. As she was asking me questions I kept thinking 'Oh my goodness I sound like such an idiot'.
I mean I tried to answer the questions honestly and the best I could, but I just felt like I was coming off like a moron. I have absolutely no idea how it went. Will find out next week if they liked me. I just feel strange. I felt like I was trying so hard and I just don't know how it went over.
I just want a job so bad. You know? Like it just feels desperate. I just don't know. Makes me nervous. It all just made me feel really nervous. I need to just forget about it and let God take me where he wants.
The end...I am going to go get some subway.
OH! Just to let you know today is also going to be our last night in our condo. Everything is being moved out tomorrow. So yeah.
Wednesday, April 25, 2012
VENTING..
I need to take a moment to vent about the complete STUPIDITY of my parents!!!!!!!!!!!! They were perfectly aware that in filling out teaching applications I was starting to put down their phone number because as of next week my phone number will be disconnected. So you know they were aware that if any calls for me went to their house they were probably from people interested in me for jobs.
SO! What happens when the first person calls their house looking for me?? Dad tells them I no longer live there!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IDIOTS!!!!!!!!! According to Mom, Dad was confused and thought it was somebody calling from a "hair" academy. No fools!!!! We have been telling Dad for years that he needs some hearing aides. What he thought was the "hair" academy was National Heritage Academy!
Fortunately the caller sent me an email letting me know that they had trouble with the provided phone number and wanted to get in touch with me to schedule a phone interview!!!
Now this is certainly not the ideal teaching position. It is teaching 7th and 8th grade at a charter school in Gary. You would have to be crazy to teach in Gary...but you would also have to be crazy to teach in East LA. Of course teaching at a charter school in Gary wouldn't (one would hope) be as bad as teaching public school in Gary. We shall see. It isn't the ideal job. But honestly, in my prayers I have been telling God that I don't need the perfect job, I don't need my dream job. I just need a job. So here is one and I am very thankful! I also can't get ahead of myself, this isn't "my" job yet. Just an interview. But still very exciting!
SO! What happens when the first person calls their house looking for me?? Dad tells them I no longer live there!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IDIOTS!!!!!!!!! According to Mom, Dad was confused and thought it was somebody calling from a "hair" academy. No fools!!!! We have been telling Dad for years that he needs some hearing aides. What he thought was the "hair" academy was National Heritage Academy!
Fortunately the caller sent me an email letting me know that they had trouble with the provided phone number and wanted to get in touch with me to schedule a phone interview!!!
Now this is certainly not the ideal teaching position. It is teaching 7th and 8th grade at a charter school in Gary. You would have to be crazy to teach in Gary...but you would also have to be crazy to teach in East LA. Of course teaching at a charter school in Gary wouldn't (one would hope) be as bad as teaching public school in Gary. We shall see. It isn't the ideal job. But honestly, in my prayers I have been telling God that I don't need the perfect job, I don't need my dream job. I just need a job. So here is one and I am very thankful! I also can't get ahead of myself, this isn't "my" job yet. Just an interview. But still very exciting!
Tuesday, April 24, 2012
Packing and Livestrong
Hi my friends. My time in Canada is quickly winding down. Have been slowly and gradually packing things up. Today I started some packing in the kitchen. Still have a lot to pack up in there, can't believe how many boxes it is taking. All of the stuff that I got packed today I will be taking up to the in-laws tomorrow. All of our stuff is going to stay there till we have a place to live in Indiana. Because I have been doing all the packing bit by bit and taking it to the in-laws bit by bit means we won't have to rent a U-haul and have a big moving day. Marks brother has a trailer we will use to transport the rest of the furniture. So it should all work out pretty well.
On Saturday Mark's sister is getting Blue Jays tickets for the whole fam as a nice little outing for us all before I leave. Should be very fun. The Blue Jays are doing really well this year, so it has been exciting watching them this season, and will be great to get to a game.
The only other news that I have is that I have been using the livestrong website again. Been trying to keep track of what I am eating, and not go over my calorie limit. Has been good so far this week. I also like that I can type in one of my recipes and it will calculate the nutritional info for it. So I am hoping that this is the start of the weight loss. So I figure between that and running I should be okay. It should be easier for me to run once I am back in Indiana because it is always so much warmer there than it is here. This 10 mile race Sarah is making me do in August will be great to get me into shape. Will be useful for the 2 weddings that I am in this year.
All for now I guess.
On Saturday Mark's sister is getting Blue Jays tickets for the whole fam as a nice little outing for us all before I leave. Should be very fun. The Blue Jays are doing really well this year, so it has been exciting watching them this season, and will be great to get to a game.
The only other news that I have is that I have been using the livestrong website again. Been trying to keep track of what I am eating, and not go over my calorie limit. Has been good so far this week. I also like that I can type in one of my recipes and it will calculate the nutritional info for it. So I am hoping that this is the start of the weight loss. So I figure between that and running I should be okay. It should be easier for me to run once I am back in Indiana because it is always so much warmer there than it is here. This 10 mile race Sarah is making me do in August will be great to get me into shape. Will be useful for the 2 weddings that I am in this year.
All for now I guess.
Wednesday, April 18, 2012
2 weeks notice
I am officially giving Canada my two weeks notice. WOOHOO! May 4th we close on the condo, and May 5th my dad is coming to get me and take me home. Will suck being away from Mark for awhile...but we will deal with it because it will be better in the long run.
My dad picking me up had to take a little planning. Sarah has to go to Valpo that weekend for a wedding shower. Jeremy can't go with her because he's got to work on the weekends. Sarah didn't want to take Tommy on a 4 hour car trip by herself. Plus mom and dad wouldn't even be home then cuz they were coming to get me.
So I got the plans all worked out for the fam. On Friday May 4th, the parentals drive up to Detroit and spend the night at Sarah and Jer's. Saturday the 5th, Sarah gets up and goes to Valpo. Jeremy works. Mom watches Tommy boy, and Dad comes up to get me. On Saturday evening we are reunited at Sarah and Jer's. I am SO glad it works out this way so I get to see my little Tommy boy before heading back to Indiana! Haven't seen the little man since January!!!
I'm sure you guys don't really need to know the logistics of how I am getting back home, but we set the plan in stone today and so I am just excited about it!
It is just funny that when I was in college I couldn't wait to get out of Valpo and live on my own. I was so excited to move to LA. Valpo was so boring. After I met Mark I knew that when all was said and done I only wanted to live in Valpo. I love that when you go for a run in Valpo you smile, nod and say hello to the people you pass, and they say hello to you too. I love our old fashion downtown, with the ancient buildings, and cute little shops. I love going for walks in the park with my mom then stopping at Pat's Parlour for some ice cream (one of the only times I see my mother eat ice cream, and each time she gets butter pecan without fail). I love speeding on the back roads. I hate that everything in Valpo closes at 9pm, but I love that too because I know that it means when my kids are teenagers there isn't a lot of trouble they can get into in Valpo because everything is closed.
I am just so looking forward to being back. I will be able to shop at Target again now! I will have a cell phone again! I get to play with Caroline and Colin on a regular basis. I get to hang out with my cousins again. I get to be around my crazy stupid cat again. I get to go to the popcorn festival this year!! I get to do a lot of things that I have been desperately missing that past two years. I am just very excited now. The countdown begins.
My dad picking me up had to take a little planning. Sarah has to go to Valpo that weekend for a wedding shower. Jeremy can't go with her because he's got to work on the weekends. Sarah didn't want to take Tommy on a 4 hour car trip by herself. Plus mom and dad wouldn't even be home then cuz they were coming to get me.
So I got the plans all worked out for the fam. On Friday May 4th, the parentals drive up to Detroit and spend the night at Sarah and Jer's. Saturday the 5th, Sarah gets up and goes to Valpo. Jeremy works. Mom watches Tommy boy, and Dad comes up to get me. On Saturday evening we are reunited at Sarah and Jer's. I am SO glad it works out this way so I get to see my little Tommy boy before heading back to Indiana! Haven't seen the little man since January!!!
I'm sure you guys don't really need to know the logistics of how I am getting back home, but we set the plan in stone today and so I am just excited about it!
It is just funny that when I was in college I couldn't wait to get out of Valpo and live on my own. I was so excited to move to LA. Valpo was so boring. After I met Mark I knew that when all was said and done I only wanted to live in Valpo. I love that when you go for a run in Valpo you smile, nod and say hello to the people you pass, and they say hello to you too. I love our old fashion downtown, with the ancient buildings, and cute little shops. I love going for walks in the park with my mom then stopping at Pat's Parlour for some ice cream (one of the only times I see my mother eat ice cream, and each time she gets butter pecan without fail). I love speeding on the back roads. I hate that everything in Valpo closes at 9pm, but I love that too because I know that it means when my kids are teenagers there isn't a lot of trouble they can get into in Valpo because everything is closed.
I am just so looking forward to being back. I will be able to shop at Target again now! I will have a cell phone again! I get to play with Caroline and Colin on a regular basis. I get to hang out with my cousins again. I get to be around my crazy stupid cat again. I get to go to the popcorn festival this year!! I get to do a lot of things that I have been desperately missing that past two years. I am just very excited now. The countdown begins.
Friday, April 13, 2012
Terminated
As of 11 am this morning my Canadian paperwork has been terminated. We were supposed to have our interview today for my becoming Canadian. As we have sold our condo and have half of it packed up, we figured we would skip the interview, and skip paying the Canadian government another 500 dollars. The request for the interview we received said that if we did not go to the interview our paperwork would be terminated. So I am officially not Canadian! WooHoo! We don't know what the repercussions of skipping the interview are going to be. Will I be deported? Don't know, but it seems unlikely. And who cares if I am cuz I am moving home anyway!
So anyway. I am not terrible sleeper. Occasionally I will have the random night when it takes me like 2 hours to fall asleep, so those are usually few and far between. Last night was a pretty brutal night of sleep, or should I say lack of sleep. All thanks to Mr. Snorey McSnorestoloud laying next to me. Am I the only one that has a husband who snores horribly?? (BTW Mark would be mortified to know that I am telling all my friends that he snores, so maybe don't bring it up when you see him next). Like seriously he is horrible! He sleeps on his back, he snores. He sleeps on his sides, he snores! Does not snore when he sleeps on his stomach but he rarely sleeps on his stomach. Now usually he isn't too horrible with the snoring. I can usually sleep through it often with the help of ear plugs. Unfortunately last night around 3am or so I woke up to his snoring. His snoring was so loud that it woke me up, AND I had my little ear plugs in!
I tried pulling on the blankets to get him to move (my usual method of interrupting his snoring), didn't work. I tried moving around a lot in an attempt to shake the bed and make him move so he'd stop snoring. But nothing was working, deep sleeper that he is he was out. So after awhile of this I finally got fed up and went and slept on the couch.
So irritated. Then he wakes up this morning without a clue and asks why I slept on the couch. Uhh Hello buddy YOU'RE the reason I slept on the couch!
Now most people (like my sister Sarah) would probably lay next to their snoring husband for about 5 minutes before giving them a swift kick to make them stop. I don't know why, but I just think this is a mean thing to do. Usually pulling the blankets off him works, so I try to avoid kicking him and being a jerk. He can't help that he snores, he can't control it. And after we got married the first time I complained about him snoring he didn't believe that he actually snored. Anyway...am I the only one with this problem.
I guess maybe I'm not as good of a sleeper as I originally thought I was. Usually on a night like last night I would pop a couple Tylenol pm and be out cold through all the snoring...but alas we were out of that miracle drug, and I was forced to suffer. So the end.
So anyway. I am not terrible sleeper. Occasionally I will have the random night when it takes me like 2 hours to fall asleep, so those are usually few and far between. Last night was a pretty brutal night of sleep, or should I say lack of sleep. All thanks to Mr. Snorey McSnorestoloud laying next to me. Am I the only one that has a husband who snores horribly?? (BTW Mark would be mortified to know that I am telling all my friends that he snores, so maybe don't bring it up when you see him next). Like seriously he is horrible! He sleeps on his back, he snores. He sleeps on his sides, he snores! Does not snore when he sleeps on his stomach but he rarely sleeps on his stomach. Now usually he isn't too horrible with the snoring. I can usually sleep through it often with the help of ear plugs. Unfortunately last night around 3am or so I woke up to his snoring. His snoring was so loud that it woke me up, AND I had my little ear plugs in!
I tried pulling on the blankets to get him to move (my usual method of interrupting his snoring), didn't work. I tried moving around a lot in an attempt to shake the bed and make him move so he'd stop snoring. But nothing was working, deep sleeper that he is he was out. So after awhile of this I finally got fed up and went and slept on the couch.
So irritated. Then he wakes up this morning without a clue and asks why I slept on the couch. Uhh Hello buddy YOU'RE the reason I slept on the couch!
Now most people (like my sister Sarah) would probably lay next to their snoring husband for about 5 minutes before giving them a swift kick to make them stop. I don't know why, but I just think this is a mean thing to do. Usually pulling the blankets off him works, so I try to avoid kicking him and being a jerk. He can't help that he snores, he can't control it. And after we got married the first time I complained about him snoring he didn't believe that he actually snored. Anyway...am I the only one with this problem.
I guess maybe I'm not as good of a sleeper as I originally thought I was. Usually on a night like last night I would pop a couple Tylenol pm and be out cold through all the snoring...but alas we were out of that miracle drug, and I was forced to suffer. So the end.
Thursday, April 5, 2012
SOLD
I knew our condo was gonna sell fast. I was thinking it would sell in a week. I didn't entirely expect it to sell within 24 hours of being on the market. But it did and I COULDNT BE MORE EXCITED!!!
Not to mention that we sold it at a good profit which is fabulous. Soo ohh soo happy!
So the closing date is 30 days from now which puts it at the beginning of May. Don't really know what our short term plans are going to be though. As in I don't know how soon I will be moving back home. But I will definitely be home by the time we close on the condo. Sooner, if I get deported (that is a whole other story).
It is finally real now. You know? The whole we are moving to the US finally feels real. Up to this point Mark's immigration has gone through quickly, our condo has sold quickly...it seems like everything is finally falling into place, and it feels really good.
We know that the next probably 6 months are going to be crazy and Mark and I will probably be living apart for a lot of that time...but we know that in the long term it will be worth it.
Now I am just soo excited! Happy not to think about it all too much tonight, and just celebrate with my husband going out to dinner and a movie, with a little bubbly waiting for us at home. I am just soo happy and so thankful. There have been a lot of moments in the last two years where I have been so discouraged and doubted that God would make is possible for us to move back to the US...but I know this is all him putting things into place and I couldn't be more thankful than I am right now.
Not to mention that we sold it at a good profit which is fabulous. Soo ohh soo happy!
So the closing date is 30 days from now which puts it at the beginning of May. Don't really know what our short term plans are going to be though. As in I don't know how soon I will be moving back home. But I will definitely be home by the time we close on the condo. Sooner, if I get deported (that is a whole other story).
It is finally real now. You know? The whole we are moving to the US finally feels real. Up to this point Mark's immigration has gone through quickly, our condo has sold quickly...it seems like everything is finally falling into place, and it feels really good.
We know that the next probably 6 months are going to be crazy and Mark and I will probably be living apart for a lot of that time...but we know that in the long term it will be worth it.
Now I am just soo excited! Happy not to think about it all too much tonight, and just celebrate with my husband going out to dinner and a movie, with a little bubbly waiting for us at home. I am just soo happy and so thankful. There have been a lot of moments in the last two years where I have been so discouraged and doubted that God would make is possible for us to move back to the US...but I know this is all him putting things into place and I couldn't be more thankful than I am right now.
Thursday, March 29, 2012
Wild World
Hello there friends! I am in a pretty content mood at the moment and I don't know why, but listening to the slightly depressing Cat Stevens song Wild World is making me really happy right now. No idea why....I think it has something to do with the Lalalalala`s.
I have been painting non-stop for the past 4 days. In case you didn't know painting is a great workout. My back and arms have been very sore. Mr. Miyagi was right on with that paint the fence thing in The Karate Kid. No wonder Daniel son kicked so much butt in that movie.
The painting is going to continue through the weekend. I shall finish up the trim and doors tomorrow, then Saturday Me, Mark and our brother in law Ed are going to get the walls all painted and pretty them up to get ready to sell! WOOHOOO!!
Next week is also Mark's last week of work!! So I am planning a little celebration for the two of us. I am gonna take him out to dinner, then come home to some dessert and champagne. It is a big moment in our lives, and I figure it is worth celebrating. So I am excited to surprise him.
Then next weekend is the Easter Gathering (a big deal up here). And there is usually a good crowd of my friends from Ohio who come up for it, so it will be nice to see people I haven't seen in awhile.
So that is the latest in my wild world. No running this week because I have literally been painting all day every day this week. Next week should be back to normal though.
I have been painting non-stop for the past 4 days. In case you didn't know painting is a great workout. My back and arms have been very sore. Mr. Miyagi was right on with that paint the fence thing in The Karate Kid. No wonder Daniel son kicked so much butt in that movie.
The painting is going to continue through the weekend. I shall finish up the trim and doors tomorrow, then Saturday Me, Mark and our brother in law Ed are going to get the walls all painted and pretty them up to get ready to sell! WOOHOOO!!
Next week is also Mark's last week of work!! So I am planning a little celebration for the two of us. I am gonna take him out to dinner, then come home to some dessert and champagne. It is a big moment in our lives, and I figure it is worth celebrating. So I am excited to surprise him.
Then next weekend is the Easter Gathering (a big deal up here). And there is usually a good crowd of my friends from Ohio who come up for it, so it will be nice to see people I haven't seen in awhile.
So that is the latest in my wild world. No running this week because I have literally been painting all day every day this week. Next week should be back to normal though.
Thursday, March 22, 2012
It's happening
Things are starting to happen. In two weeks from today, Mark will work his last day at Gateway Freight, and start working for his brothers! WoooHoo!! That means that the condo is going on the market ASAP. We need to spruce it up a bit for selling..get rid of some clutter, start packing some things away, fill some holes, and new paint -which I am going to be doing next week like a crazy person.
Here is the current plan so you guys know. As soon as the condo sells (or before if it is taking awhile) I am moving back to Indiana. Mark will be moving in with his parents. He is gonna be travelling to Ohio from Canada probably for weeks at a time until we can get his green card. Once he has that he can just stay in Ohio and travel back to Indiana until he gets the Ohio office running smoothly. Then they will set up the Indiana office. Yes it is going to be a seriously tough few months because we are gonna be in a long distance relationship for awhile. But we thought it best if I get to Indiana ASAP and start looking for jobs/working. So that is the current plan and hope it all goes well.
I'm thinking by May I will be back in Indiana...and at that time I will be a cell phone owner again! haha, I can't wait.
So that is the story for now. Mark and I are both really excited that this next chapter of our lives (the one we've been waiting for for so long) is finally here. So excited to get back home soon!
This song always makes me wanna dance around and act a fool and put me in a good mood, so here is one of my favorite good mood songs for ya
Here is the current plan so you guys know. As soon as the condo sells (or before if it is taking awhile) I am moving back to Indiana. Mark will be moving in with his parents. He is gonna be travelling to Ohio from Canada probably for weeks at a time until we can get his green card. Once he has that he can just stay in Ohio and travel back to Indiana until he gets the Ohio office running smoothly. Then they will set up the Indiana office. Yes it is going to be a seriously tough few months because we are gonna be in a long distance relationship for awhile. But we thought it best if I get to Indiana ASAP and start looking for jobs/working. So that is the current plan and hope it all goes well.
I'm thinking by May I will be back in Indiana...and at that time I will be a cell phone owner again! haha, I can't wait.
So that is the story for now. Mark and I are both really excited that this next chapter of our lives (the one we've been waiting for for so long) is finally here. So excited to get back home soon!
This song always makes me wanna dance around and act a fool and put me in a good mood, so here is one of my favorite good mood songs for ya
Saturday, March 17, 2012
3/4 short
Well I made a seriously great effort to run a total of 10 miles this week. I was 3/4 of a mile short of the goal. Marky boy was on the computer when I went to run, so I didn't check to see how far today's route was. I was hoping it was 4 miles cuz that was the distance I needed to complete the 10 miles for the week. I babysat for my sister in law 3 days this week, which is what made it tougher for me to get the miles in, just didn't have the time. If I had gotten up earlier I could have done it, but I'm just getting started with running again, and the changing of the attitude, so I'm not pushing it too much.
Anyway, even though I didn't meet my goal, I am feeling great!! All the running has given me a great boost of those much needed endorphins. So I have been feeling good, and the nice warm spring weather is making me happy.
I don't know what else to say besides things are good, and I'm feeling happy. Also enjoying March madness and hoping my IU hoosiers can win their game tonight!
Anyway, even though I didn't meet my goal, I am feeling great!! All the running has given me a great boost of those much needed endorphins. So I have been feeling good, and the nice warm spring weather is making me happy.
I don't know what else to say besides things are good, and I'm feeling happy. Also enjoying March madness and hoping my IU hoosiers can win their game tonight!
Monday, March 12, 2012
Changes
It is time to make some changes. So here are the changes that are happening. First, I am going to try to get in 10 miles a week. Run 10 miles a week shouldn't be too bad I don't think. Sarah and I are running a 10 mile race in August, so I've got to get started now. It is time to be a runner again.
Second change is to do with the spiritual side of life. I know my attitude hasn't really been in a good place spiritually for awhile. Last night Mark's parents passed on a lot of Christadelphian books to us. So that sparked a little something, and we are gonna try and go through Elpis Israel together. Should be challenging, but I'm sure rewarding as well.
Last a song by a Canadian country singer that I love. Fire it Up
Second change is to do with the spiritual side of life. I know my attitude hasn't really been in a good place spiritually for awhile. Last night Mark's parents passed on a lot of Christadelphian books to us. So that sparked a little something, and we are gonna try and go through Elpis Israel together. Should be challenging, but I'm sure rewarding as well.
Last a song by a Canadian country singer that I love. Fire it Up
Tuesday, March 6, 2012
Back to Reality
After 3 weeks away from Canada, I am once again back to reality. As much as I missed Mark for the first 2 weeks I still had a great time just hanging out with Ann and Aaron and the kiddies. Colin and Caroline are both getting so big. After a day with Colin, I am happy to say that he no longer cries when I try to hold him. He finally knows his Aunt maymay. We also just found out that Ann and Aaron are expecting another boy!
Then last week, Mark and I were off to Mexico for an incredibly relaxing week. Have literally never been that relaxed ever. It felt great. Our resort was nice and we enjoyed the all inclusive experience. We went on one excursion, deep sea fishing. I caught a big Mahi Mahi. You can see the pictures on facebook. It was an awesome week, and Mark and I just enjoyed our time like crazy.
Now back home again I am trying to work on some things. I really need to try and keep myself motivated and get to working out again. Starting next week I am going to try to get in 10 miles per week. I know that I will probably fail and that unless I start changing my attitude about things in general. I was soo happy when I was back home. I didn't feel sad, or depressed about life, I felt happy, and calm, and refreshed. The minute we crossed the border back into Canada on Sunday night, I felt like I just deflated. So changing my attitude is all I can do, and realize that we will be living in Indiana very soon, and I just have to hang on till then. It is a work in progress and I'm sure you will all be kept up to date on how I am doing.
Then last week, Mark and I were off to Mexico for an incredibly relaxing week. Have literally never been that relaxed ever. It felt great. Our resort was nice and we enjoyed the all inclusive experience. We went on one excursion, deep sea fishing. I caught a big Mahi Mahi. You can see the pictures on facebook. It was an awesome week, and Mark and I just enjoyed our time like crazy.
Now back home again I am trying to work on some things. I really need to try and keep myself motivated and get to working out again. Starting next week I am going to try to get in 10 miles per week. I know that I will probably fail and that unless I start changing my attitude about things in general. I was soo happy when I was back home. I didn't feel sad, or depressed about life, I felt happy, and calm, and refreshed. The minute we crossed the border back into Canada on Sunday night, I felt like I just deflated. So changing my attitude is all I can do, and realize that we will be living in Indiana very soon, and I just have to hang on till then. It is a work in progress and I'm sure you will all be kept up to date on how I am doing.
Monday, February 13, 2012
Love
I am loving my time in Indiana right now. Just been spending time with A&A and the kiddies, and got to hang out with my wonderful cousin Kerri. Every time I've been around Colin before this week he just cried and got upset because he didn't know me well. But after a couple of hours yesterday he finally warmed up to me! So happy. He is sooo cute. He has crazy hair that sticks straight up. (Will put pictures up in a couple weeks when we get back to Canadaland).
Kerri and her fiance just bought a house, so I was helping her pack today. We went and looked at their new house. It made me excited for when Mark and I move back down, because our tiny one bedroom condo is worth more money than Kerri's new spacious house on 2.5 acres.
I am feeling kinda wired right now. And happy. And other things, I don't know what else. In a week and a half I will be sitting at this pool:
Can't wait. Counting down the days.
Kerri and her fiance just bought a house, so I was helping her pack today. We went and looked at their new house. It made me excited for when Mark and I move back down, because our tiny one bedroom condo is worth more money than Kerri's new spacious house on 2.5 acres.
I am feeling kinda wired right now. And happy. And other things, I don't know what else. In a week and a half I will be sitting at this pool:
I also have plans to take advantage of these awesome hammocks
Thursday, February 2, 2012
In One Week
In one week I get to go home for a couple of weeks. I am excited to get back, and to get away from my usual monotony.
I am excited to see Colin and his crazy fluffy sticks straight up hair. Hoping he will be fully recovered from his pneumonia. Excited to give Caroline some extra special attention and have her sleep over with me at my parents house. Excited to go to a housewarming party for my cousin Kerri and her fiance...excited to see their new house! Still can't believe that my baby cousin is all grown up and getting married and buying a house.
By the way...Have I mentioned that I'm gonna be an aunt again this year?! LOL yeah, Ann and Aaron are expecting again. Was a bit of a shock for the family (You shoulda seen dear heart freaking out about it, it was funny). But I think A&A finally came to terms with it and are getting more excited. I think it will be the hardest on Caroline, which is why I am so glad that we will be living there then and I can give Caroline that extra bit of attention she's gonna need. The new baby and Colin will be exactly 13 months apart.
I don't really have anything else to say. Just counting down the days till vacation.
I am excited to see Colin and his crazy fluffy sticks straight up hair. Hoping he will be fully recovered from his pneumonia. Excited to give Caroline some extra special attention and have her sleep over with me at my parents house. Excited to go to a housewarming party for my cousin Kerri and her fiance...excited to see their new house! Still can't believe that my baby cousin is all grown up and getting married and buying a house.
By the way...Have I mentioned that I'm gonna be an aunt again this year?! LOL yeah, Ann and Aaron are expecting again. Was a bit of a shock for the family (You shoulda seen dear heart freaking out about it, it was funny). But I think A&A finally came to terms with it and are getting more excited. I think it will be the hardest on Caroline, which is why I am so glad that we will be living there then and I can give Caroline that extra bit of attention she's gonna need. The new baby and Colin will be exactly 13 months apart.
I don't really have anything else to say. Just counting down the days till vacation.
Thursday, January 26, 2012
Ellen
Did you guys catch Mark's boss on Ellen this week? Mike(the one in the hat) is one of the owners of Mark's company.
Tuesday, January 17, 2012
Missing
I'm in one of those moods that has got me feeling reflective, sad, frustrated, and missing my friends.
Did you know that living in California ruined me for winter? I miss wearing flip flops in January. I hate wearing boots. I hate that the bottoms of my pants are always wet from snow whenever I go out. I hate the shivering. When I was little I loved the snow. I thought it was beautiful. I always thought that there was a magical sound in the air when I stood outside while snow was falling. I hate snow now.
I miss feeling good about myself. From the moment I quit my job in LA I have felt like a failure. I hate feeling like a failure. Went from a real job to a pathetic job, to no job. Why doesn't anybody want to hire me? I put in 2 incredibly difficult years teaching, where is the pay off?? Where is my patience? Why is it so hard to trust that God knows what he is doing in my life? Where is my faith?? I know that I expect a lot out of myself...and when it doesn't work out I am a wreck. I hate failing more than anything, and I spent a lot of time in therapy trying to deal with that. But it is still an issue that I can't seem to shake. Two and a half years of feeling like a failure because I don't have a job is taking a serious toll on me. I feel like I am trying to move, but I am just stuck.
I miss feeling good about my body. I've gained a lot of weight. That motivation thing has disappeared from my life. Probably because I feel like such a failure in other aspects of my life it is translating to this as well. Mark is his typical sweet self and tells me I am beautiful and how he loves me...But my clothes don't fit. I am actually dreading our vacation next month because I will have to wear a swimsuit. You know those silly music videos I used to make? I started to make one this year, but then deleted it because I decided I looked far to fat. There was a lot of jiggling in it, and it wasn't just from my boobs. Because I don't have a job or any serious reason to get out of bed in the morning, I typically end up just wearing sweat pants everyday.
I miss my confidence. I miss my happy. These are all issues I have struggled with before. I keep trying to look into my past and remember how I dealt with these things way back when. I can't remember what I did, or what changed.
I don't know what else to say. Maybe my problems don't really seem like actual problems to other people, and maybe I am just complaining too much and just need to get over myself. But in reality, these are the things that are debilitating me. It's just the same thing day in and day out. Somewhere along the way I lost my happy and I don't know how to get it back. And if I am being brutally honest, as much as I want the happy back, I'm not motivated enough to do something about it. So in the end it all comes down to the fact that I am just letting this depression overtake me. I'm not doing anything about it because, well, it just seems like too much work at this point.
-And yes, I realize that most of you will want to slap me after that last statement...but guess what? I really don't care. You are all in California anyway, so what does it matter? Right now California feels like it is across the world. I am pretty sure that I won't get out there again until Kathy's wedding in 2013, so that is probably adding to the distance I feel from it, and all of you.
I need to stop this post now and lose myself in a book about Harry Truman. Reading helps make me tired before bed. Then I will wake up tomorrow wearing my sweatpants, and do exactly the same thing I did the day before, and the day before that, and the day before that.....
Did you know that living in California ruined me for winter? I miss wearing flip flops in January. I hate wearing boots. I hate that the bottoms of my pants are always wet from snow whenever I go out. I hate the shivering. When I was little I loved the snow. I thought it was beautiful. I always thought that there was a magical sound in the air when I stood outside while snow was falling. I hate snow now.
I miss feeling good about myself. From the moment I quit my job in LA I have felt like a failure. I hate feeling like a failure. Went from a real job to a pathetic job, to no job. Why doesn't anybody want to hire me? I put in 2 incredibly difficult years teaching, where is the pay off?? Where is my patience? Why is it so hard to trust that God knows what he is doing in my life? Where is my faith?? I know that I expect a lot out of myself...and when it doesn't work out I am a wreck. I hate failing more than anything, and I spent a lot of time in therapy trying to deal with that. But it is still an issue that I can't seem to shake. Two and a half years of feeling like a failure because I don't have a job is taking a serious toll on me. I feel like I am trying to move, but I am just stuck.
I miss feeling good about my body. I've gained a lot of weight. That motivation thing has disappeared from my life. Probably because I feel like such a failure in other aspects of my life it is translating to this as well. Mark is his typical sweet self and tells me I am beautiful and how he loves me...But my clothes don't fit. I am actually dreading our vacation next month because I will have to wear a swimsuit. You know those silly music videos I used to make? I started to make one this year, but then deleted it because I decided I looked far to fat. There was a lot of jiggling in it, and it wasn't just from my boobs. Because I don't have a job or any serious reason to get out of bed in the morning, I typically end up just wearing sweat pants everyday.
I miss my confidence. I miss my happy. These are all issues I have struggled with before. I keep trying to look into my past and remember how I dealt with these things way back when. I can't remember what I did, or what changed.
I don't know what else to say. Maybe my problems don't really seem like actual problems to other people, and maybe I am just complaining too much and just need to get over myself. But in reality, these are the things that are debilitating me. It's just the same thing day in and day out. Somewhere along the way I lost my happy and I don't know how to get it back. And if I am being brutally honest, as much as I want the happy back, I'm not motivated enough to do something about it. So in the end it all comes down to the fact that I am just letting this depression overtake me. I'm not doing anything about it because, well, it just seems like too much work at this point.
-And yes, I realize that most of you will want to slap me after that last statement...but guess what? I really don't care. You are all in California anyway, so what does it matter? Right now California feels like it is across the world. I am pretty sure that I won't get out there again until Kathy's wedding in 2013, so that is probably adding to the distance I feel from it, and all of you.
I need to stop this post now and lose myself in a book about Harry Truman. Reading helps make me tired before bed. Then I will wake up tomorrow wearing my sweatpants, and do exactly the same thing I did the day before, and the day before that, and the day before that.....
Thursday, January 12, 2012
Latest update
In the past week things have calmed down a bit.
The only thing new in my life at the moment is that my chest is covered in wires and tape. I've been having some issues with my heart lately. Felt like my heart kept skipping beats every now and then. So a couple doctors visits later I now have a heart monitor hooked up to my body for the next day. I'm not worried about it or anything. More than likely dear heart passed on her heart condition to me. So anyway, getting it checked out.
The only other thing that is interesting in my life is that Mark and I are thinking about taking a vacation. He just decided that it would be nice to get away somewhere nice before he starts working for his brothers and has no time for anything ever. So we are thinking all-inclusive somewhere, probably Mexico. Thinking Cancun area. It will be soo nice to get away to this for a week.
If anybody has any good suggestions for places to go or resorts to go to let me know! Trying to keep the budget down as much as possible.
The only thing new in my life at the moment is that my chest is covered in wires and tape. I've been having some issues with my heart lately. Felt like my heart kept skipping beats every now and then. So a couple doctors visits later I now have a heart monitor hooked up to my body for the next day. I'm not worried about it or anything. More than likely dear heart passed on her heart condition to me. So anyway, getting it checked out.
The only other thing that is interesting in my life is that Mark and I are thinking about taking a vacation. He just decided that it would be nice to get away somewhere nice before he starts working for his brothers and has no time for anything ever. So we are thinking all-inclusive somewhere, probably Mexico. Thinking Cancun area. It will be soo nice to get away to this for a week.
Wednesday, January 4, 2012
Terrible, Horrible, No Good, Very Bad Day
I don't really know how else to sum up the past few days other than terrible. How do you look at a friend your own age lying in a coffin and not feel sick?
Mary was my best friend for the first 18 years of my life. I know now that her death was good because it ended her suffering, and her next moment will be the kingdom. This is a perspective I didn't have at the last funeral I went to. It is just one of many lessons that I have learned from Mary.
Mary and I had nicknames for each other. She called me Megami, and I called her Mahi. I don't remember how those names came to be. I do remember that we cracked up when at 15 we learned that there was a fish called Mahi Mahi. We had code names for other people/things too. (Something that I get the feeling most girlfriends do around the age of 14). Her cousin Andrew who I had a crush on for years was referred to as "cuz boy". A guy Mary had a crush on was referred to as "Ladies Man" or "LM" for short.
I say Mary was my best friend for 18 years because after we finished high school we drifted apart. I was hard headed and said some things I regretted. It didn't take long to reconcile with her, but our friendship was never as close as it had once been. In 2007/2008 Mary and I took up emailing each other again. I told her about my struggles with teaching in LA she told me about her struggles with her cancer. She came to my wedding. This past year at Hanover, when we were talking, I knew she knew that it would be her last time at that place. Hanover is littered with memories I have with her from the time we were 5 years old. I just feel like sharing one memory from Hanover with Mary that was probably the single best memory I have of her because it show what a good friend she was.
In the summer of 2004 we had a tragedy in our family. Ann and Aaron had a baby who died at birth. Our family was devastated. I remember what I was wearing that day. I remember having to call Sarah and tell her the sad news. I remember snippets from the baby's funeral. I remember the hymn we sung. I remember little else from that week. One thing I do remember that week was that agonizing decision of whether or not to go to Hanover the following week. I kept thinking that I shouldn't go to Hanover that year because it was too soon after the baby. I struggled the whole week. One afternoon I was laying in my room at Hanover. All of the other people were out and about participating in all the various activities.
I was not. I didn't feel like it. Then all of the sudden Mary walked into my room. (At this point Mary and I were in more of an acquaintance type friendship). She asked what I was doing and when I failed to give an answer she demanded that I get up because I was going to take a walk with her.
So off we go. We talked a little bit about the situation with the baby and how I couldn't get that hymn from the funeral out of my head. We talked and joked about the cicadas. That particular year there were swarms and swarms of cicadas in the trees. If you looked closely at the trees you could see tons and tons of cicadas that had shed their skin. Mary, the lover of all things nature was fascinated by these little bug shells. That was when I snapped this picture of her and a cicada shell.
It was also on that walked that I snapped this picture from "the point" of the Ohio river...with Mary standing next to me as I did.
As we completed our walk, I felt better.
As the week at Hanover went on things got better until one night at devotions, we sang the same hymn that I had sung at my nephews funeral. I had a panic attack. I ran straight to my room heaving and sobbing and shaking. Not long after I was in the arms of 3 of my friends...one of whom was Mary. They had all run after me because they all knew why I was so upset.
I came away from that moment with a huge appreciation that I had Mary there for me that week, and wondered why in the world I had ever stopped being close with her.
I take my lessons on friendship from Mary. I take lessons on faith from Mary.
A horrible day like today has made me excited for the kingdom, and a time when I can see my dear old friend again.
Mary was my best friend for the first 18 years of my life. I know now that her death was good because it ended her suffering, and her next moment will be the kingdom. This is a perspective I didn't have at the last funeral I went to. It is just one of many lessons that I have learned from Mary.
Mary and I had nicknames for each other. She called me Megami, and I called her Mahi. I don't remember how those names came to be. I do remember that we cracked up when at 15 we learned that there was a fish called Mahi Mahi. We had code names for other people/things too. (Something that I get the feeling most girlfriends do around the age of 14). Her cousin Andrew who I had a crush on for years was referred to as "cuz boy". A guy Mary had a crush on was referred to as "Ladies Man" or "LM" for short.
I say Mary was my best friend for 18 years because after we finished high school we drifted apart. I was hard headed and said some things I regretted. It didn't take long to reconcile with her, but our friendship was never as close as it had once been. In 2007/2008 Mary and I took up emailing each other again. I told her about my struggles with teaching in LA she told me about her struggles with her cancer. She came to my wedding. This past year at Hanover, when we were talking, I knew she knew that it would be her last time at that place. Hanover is littered with memories I have with her from the time we were 5 years old. I just feel like sharing one memory from Hanover with Mary that was probably the single best memory I have of her because it show what a good friend she was.
In the summer of 2004 we had a tragedy in our family. Ann and Aaron had a baby who died at birth. Our family was devastated. I remember what I was wearing that day. I remember having to call Sarah and tell her the sad news. I remember snippets from the baby's funeral. I remember the hymn we sung. I remember little else from that week. One thing I do remember that week was that agonizing decision of whether or not to go to Hanover the following week. I kept thinking that I shouldn't go to Hanover that year because it was too soon after the baby. I struggled the whole week. One afternoon I was laying in my room at Hanover. All of the other people were out and about participating in all the various activities.
I was not. I didn't feel like it. Then all of the sudden Mary walked into my room. (At this point Mary and I were in more of an acquaintance type friendship). She asked what I was doing and when I failed to give an answer she demanded that I get up because I was going to take a walk with her.
So off we go. We talked a little bit about the situation with the baby and how I couldn't get that hymn from the funeral out of my head. We talked and joked about the cicadas. That particular year there were swarms and swarms of cicadas in the trees. If you looked closely at the trees you could see tons and tons of cicadas that had shed their skin. Mary, the lover of all things nature was fascinated by these little bug shells. That was when I snapped this picture of her and a cicada shell.
As the week at Hanover went on things got better until one night at devotions, we sang the same hymn that I had sung at my nephews funeral. I had a panic attack. I ran straight to my room heaving and sobbing and shaking. Not long after I was in the arms of 3 of my friends...one of whom was Mary. They had all run after me because they all knew why I was so upset.
I came away from that moment with a huge appreciation that I had Mary there for me that week, and wondered why in the world I had ever stopped being close with her.
I take my lessons on friendship from Mary. I take lessons on faith from Mary.
A horrible day like today has made me excited for the kingdom, and a time when I can see my dear old friend again.
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