It's the heat

I have been ridiculously unmotivated to get to the gym the past week.  So let's take a look at how it all went down...

Last Sunday I had gone to the gym and had a good workout.  By Monday I was plenty sore.  But Monday Mark and I went golfing, and after 4 hours of walking and swinging clubs around, I was exhausted and even more sore having used muscles to golf that I didn't know existed.  On Tuesday, I went to the gym and did weights focusing on my arms and back muscles which were still painfully sore from golf.  On Wednesday I was still so sore that I thought I would forget the gym.  Mark and I ended up going to the driving range that evening to get me some more golf practice.  After hitting exactly 108 golf balls I felt like my body was done.  My arms and back were crazy sore not to mention the horrific blister on my thumb.  Still being really sore on Thursday I opted out of the gym.  Friday I had no excuse of not going other than I just didn't want to.  Saturday and Sunday were the same.  Today, I am still in my pajamas and writing this entry, while continuing to debate on if I am going to the gym or not.

So we get to what I shall call the REAL REASON for my lack of not wanting to go.  Hanover, and clothes.  When I got the gym membership I thought it would be awesome if I lost enough weight before hanover that I could fit into my clothes again.  I think this was the week that made me realize that is not going to happen.  You should see my closet...the top shelf is filled with clothes that don't fit me.  Everything that is hanging up are the things that fit. 7shirts. 2 skirts. 1 dress. 2 pairs of jeans. 1 pair of shorts. -That's it, thats all I've got.  While clothes that I was wearing just one year ago remain on the top shelf, too small. SUCKS! (that list btw doesn't include the tshirts that I workout in)
So I worked myself into a woe is my kinda funk this week about the clothes knowing that I am gonna have to spend money that should be put towards something important to get enough clothes to last me through Hanover. 

I wish that after several weeks of working out hard nothing has changed.  I of all ppl should know that it takes a long time to lose weight, I don't know why I am being so impatient this time around.  I think the thing that is bugging me the most is the fact that I know I lose the most weight when I am running consistently.  I can't run because there is something wrong with my foot.  Don't know what it is.  I just know that when I run, or even walk for a bit, it feels like my whole foot is on fire.  No health care in stupid Canada so I can't get it checked out.  So I just can't run.  It is very frustrating to my life.

Anyway, that is my big vent for the moment.  I know I need to get my lazy butt to the gym today.  It just sucks to have to by all new clothes when you have lots of clothes that should fit. Especially since clothes in Canada are ridiculously expensive and there isn't any Target.
BLAH!