Chinese

Who knew Chinese food could be so nasty. Tonight I am babysitting for my cousins and Chinese food was ordered for dinner for me and the kids. It was from a place called jade garden which is where my family has always got our Chinese food. It is always good...until tonight. Tonight was different for me because of the skinny rules.

I bought the book because I wanted something to jump start my weight loss. It certainly did that! It got me thinking about what I've been eating and got me used to eating good things, and gave me no desire for anything else. I can't follow all of what he says exactly, but following it as well as I can I've been able to lose about 10 pounds in two weeks!!

Unfortunately tonight I was faced with Chinese food and no other options. So I figured I'd eat just a small portion and go running tomorrow morning. So I ate my little bit of Chinese and as I took a bite of the egg roll I thought to myself 'this is disgusting'. It didn't taste bad...its that ive been so against anything unhealthy, and haven't eaten anything unhealthy in 2 weeks that it's like my body knew this wasn't something good for me, and became so disgusted by it. I couldn't finish the egg roll.

Now I've just been sitting here and can't stop thinking about how gross I feel. I am definitely ready for tomorrow and going running and cleansing the fried Chinese out of my system.

I never thought there would be a diet plan that would make me so turned off by unhealthy food. I haven't had any cravings for anything bad the past two weeks. Occasionally I've felt like some ice cream would be great. But then I picture myself actually eating it and what it would taste like and I get that disgusted feeling again.

So anyway I am looking forward to how the rest of it all goes. I just have been feeling so good about it all and totally reccomend this book.

Don't know

I don't know what to think anymore. Is any of this right? Is this all going to blow up in my face?

I'm just scared.

Irritated

I'm glad that you get to do whatever you feel like whenever you feel like it.  Don't worry about all those responsibilities that you have, somebody else will just pick up the slack for you.  Leaving your mess for somebody else to clean up is such a crap move.  I am so irritated that you think that you can do whatever you want and shut your responsibilities off for a night, because the mess you left lands on my husband.

Tonight was the one night Mark was going to finally have time to sit down on the phone with me so we could complete some very important immigration paperwork.  But guess what...because of you and your mess this incredibly important thing is being postponed again.

But you know don't trouble yourselves.  I know you don't know or care how your childish behavior effects other people.  You're still a kid so don't worry, us grown ups will clean up your mess again.  You can only crap on my husband so many times before I lose all respect for you. 

2 years

These are the things that are currently making me happy:
cherries make me happy

My parents backyard makes me happy

Colin talking jibberish sounds like an eastern European makes me happy

Getting random messages of love makes me happy

Talking to my husband on our two year anniversary makes me happy. He makes me laugh. It has been easy while we've been apart for me to forget how hard he works for us. I appreciate him so much and am so looking forward to the next two years with him.